Current Ramblings

Struggling lately.  Lots and lots of change taking place in my life all at one time.  I don't deal well with change.  Ever.  Losing my DBT therapist, my regular therapist is an intern that is leaving in August, personal situations that I need to change, and just lost my supervisor at work.

I've had to really work on trusting lately, trusting God and trusting myself to know what is best and how to proceed.  I've also had to work on distraction techniques, and not worrying myself sick over all the changes.

Then dodging office politics.....another sticky situation at best.

I'm getting more life lessons than I care to face at any one point in time.  But I can say that I haven't given up or quit....I am persevering and trying to use my skills to get through this, one slow painful step at a time.

Balance

So ...I've been thinking and there are some goals that I want to meet.  The most pressing I think is finding a work/life balance.  My part-time job is turning out to be more like full time and my energy has been so low that I am finding that having time for recreational activities and online activities is hard to do.

I need to get  back into church and make friends, and do some other things to balance the work stresses.

I have a job

So I started a new job last week, actually on the 19th, working as a front desk clerk at a local hotel.  Pays minimum wage, but it is a job....supposed to be part-time.  However the assistant manager asked me if I would be willing to go full-time, and mentioned that I would probably end up going full-time.

I have been in training.  However when I go back to work I will be on my own, and not in training.  Hospitality is a new career field for me.  I've done customer service before, but not hospitality.  I am learning the system of menus and screens on the computer and in my spare time I get to fold laundry.

Really liking my new boss and the assistant manager.  Both are really easy to get along with and talk to.  For the next scheduled week I am actually getting 40 hours, and the following week 32.  So it looks promising.

Still Looking

Still looking for a real job and to get out of the job training.  Had many promising opportunities, but no one willing to give me the chance that I have been waiting for.  Yet I know that God has a plan and I just have to wait on his timing.

Waiting is hard, and I'm not patient, especially with changes on the front at the job training facility...and my time running out soon.