My psychologist

I have an amazing psychologist, she has saved my life twice.  But lately I fear that she is invalidating my concerns and isn't being as helpful as she has been in the past.  After being in the hospital once and almost going back in again this year.  I came to rely really heavily on my psychologist and started emailing her a lot.  So then she has a personal issue and asks me to stop the emails.  I initially had a hard time accepting that and felt rejected.

Then in my distorted thinking I began feeling like she was judging me and not being totally supportive, but that she thought my problems were petty compared to other people's problems.  This also stemmed from the fact that she cancelled an appointment using the excuse that she had another client in crisis that she needed to see.

Well at the next appointment we discussed these feelings and how I felt about it.  Then we kind of stopped the emailing, except for what I sent her so she would have for the next session, just in case I forgot to bring my notebook.

Well then we ran into a family problem and I forgot and emailed her about it...and we ended up spending the last appointment talking about it and my reaction to it.  Well then later after the appointment I found out some more bad news and I called her office and left a message, after not receiving a call back, I emailed her about it....I had to wait all weekend for a response....when I got a response late on Monday, it was basically along the lines of "this isn't a big deal, don't worry about it."

Well seriously this is a big deal and then I felt bad and invalidated because of her reaction to my email, and the lack of a return phone call.  I feel like lately that she has been invalidating my concerns a lot.  I'm worried that I may have to find another therapist. 

I emailed her on Tuesday, basically telling her how I feel and asking if she is going to be able to help me in my self discovery/recovery or if I am going to have to find someone new to see.  She still hasn't returned my email.  Now I am concerned that instead of seeing me being assertive about the quality of care I am receiving that she is going to feel hurt, and just say that she is going to refuse to see me anymore.