Typical BPD, Maybe

So I have belonged to this one website since 2009, and I have recently come to decide that it is time for me to leave it.  This is a hard decision for me because I have invested much time getting to know others and offer support to others, yet I feel when I occasionally reach out, it is not reciprocated.

Now granted I get that it is BPD to get mad about perceived or real rejection, so it could be the BPD talking....at the same time I feel that I am no longer in the same frame of mind that I was in when I went to that site.  So I am hoping that I can successfully walk away from the site this time.

I have taken short breaks before but never been able to make it last.  But this time I hope for it to be different.  I am simply looking to make my life more about the things it should be focused on and less about websites and supposed online friends, with people that I don't really know.

DBT Classes

Some of you may recall that I mentioned that I was having some problems with the DBT group that I was attending and how with the change of therapists that it was not a great fit for me.  Well I have recently left that group and am currently on the waiting list to attend another one.

But I decided that I really wanted to learn the skills and didn't want to risk not getting the chance to learn the skills.....so taking a long shot, I decided to look online...to try and find the skills.  I have actually found a group online where you are given notes every week and actually receive feedback on your homework assignments.

I would like to recommend for anyone else looking for the DBT skills, that you check out the Yahoo DBT Skills Class.


http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/dbtclass/?yguid=539494839

My Official Diagnosis

I know that it's been awhile since I have made a long post on here.  Life has been busy.  I guess the place to start would be with saying that I received my official Mental Health Diagnosis in January.  Since receiving the diagnosis I have been busy with working at vocational rehabilitation.  I've been trying in my spare time to research the diagnoses to see what I feel fits and what doesn't so I can discuss this with my therapist.

My official diagnoses is Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), Social Phobia/Social Anxiety (SP/SA), and Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).  Then I also have traits of Dependent Personality Disorder and Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder.

While I don't have a clue what all of these things mean I have been slowly researching BPD.  I slowly plan to research the others as well.  I can agree with so much of the BPD diagnosis that I am sure that I will be posting more about that one soon.

I did start going back to church last month at a new church, but right now due to car problems I am not able to go.