Called the doc

I called the doctor about the way the meds were making me feel more panicky and jittery. My doctor was out of the office and so her husband, also the other doc called me back. He made me feel like it was a major inconvenience to do so and then he wanted me to tell him which med was causing it. As if I would know. So then he looked and told me to stop taking the wellbutrin and that they would see me in a month.

But now I feel bad because I called. :(

LATER: I am so hypersensitive and aware of everything now....that even the silence makes noise. It's strange, weird. I'll be glad when this gets out of my system. My hearing is usually not great and now I can hear all the little things that I don't normally hear or notice.

2/2/09

So tonight I started getting panicky and shaky again. I'm not sure why, because I did not even have to leave the house. I'm wondering if it is a side effect of the meds. Sometimes the side effects wear off after a couple of weeks. Otherwise I'm going to have to contact my doctor and see if she can put me on something else. It's really annoying because it's like my fight or flight response has went into overdrive and it takes hours before my body goes back to normal. It's a hard feeling to have...like your whole body is on hyper-alert. I'm hoping it passes soon. It doesn't make sense to me since I was on the same meds the last time and I don't remember having this reaction.

January 31st, 2009

I started out the day feeling on top of the world. No real reason for this feeling other than the first night I slept more than 4 hours all week. Felt like I could tackle anything....instead I sat at the computer and did not run to the store like I should have. I was too busy on the PLM site.

Tonight about 6'o clock I started feeling real panicky and shaky. Visibly shaking by the time I got to work. I haven't seen that in awhile, I'm wondering if it is my problem since it's worsened this week or a side effect to the meds. The shaking seemed internal as well as external. Have no real idea what triggered it or why it started suddenly with no warning like that. Nothing really going on to warrant that kind of a reaction.

Purpose of my blog

The intent of this blog is to share my current and past struggles with Depression and Social Anxiety Disorder. I created this blog to keep my complaining and questions separate from my other blog. However, since I am a Christian, and my Church and Church family are an active part of my life you may hear some of that come through in my postings.

I was diagnosed in 2005 with Depression and Social Anxiety disorder, I took medicine to help with it until Nov. 2007, when I decided I was better and I pulled myself off of the meds. I was med free until Thursday of last week. I'd been really having some problems lately that I did not want to admit to. But after being confronted in Love by some very caring and concerned friends, I was told that it was time to get my life back. I've been slipping backwards into depression, and mood swings for awhile now but simply did not want to see the signs. My friends demanded that I go see a doctor and get back on meds before I wound up messing up my job and all the things I have worked so hard to achieve in the last few years. It has been so bad that even spending time in the Word was not lifting my spirits for more than a few minutes. The doctor put me back on Prozac 40mg and Wellbutrin 150mg, which is what I had taken before.

I can't believe that I am back here again. This time I am using this blog to track and document all that I am going through. Probably boring to most people but if even one person gets help from reading it than it's worth it. I'm sure as I continue to write I will share more details of my past struggles as well.