I have a job

So I started a new job last week, actually on the 19th, working as a front desk clerk at a local hotel.  Pays minimum wage, but it is a job....supposed to be part-time.  However the assistant manager asked me if I would be willing to go full-time, and mentioned that I would probably end up going full-time.

I have been in training.  However when I go back to work I will be on my own, and not in training.  Hospitality is a new career field for me.  I've done customer service before, but not hospitality.  I am learning the system of menus and screens on the computer and in my spare time I get to fold laundry.

Really liking my new boss and the assistant manager.  Both are really easy to get along with and talk to.  For the next scheduled week I am actually getting 40 hours, and the following week 32.  So it looks promising.

Still Looking

Still looking for a real job and to get out of the job training.  Had many promising opportunities, but no one willing to give me the chance that I have been waiting for.  Yet I know that God has a plan and I just have to wait on his timing.

Waiting is hard, and I'm not patient, especially with changes on the front at the job training facility...and my time running out soon.

Getting in Sync

So I was reading today and I came across these words "I couldn't go on feeling out of sync with my own heart". 

These simple words echo the cry of my heart.  I can't go on working dead end jobs that mean nothing and go nowhere.  I want to help people, but I don't know how to help people when struggling with my own depression and mental illness.

I have the chance right now at a new job, doing something that I have never done.  I am excited that I might get the job, yet I am also nervous, and a little scared that it would be more than I could handle.  But I feel like this could be just the opportunity that I have been waiting for.

I Have Been Blessed

I have been blessed.  Love this song.  I have been blessed with an imperfect family, but it's mine.  I have been blessed with good friends over the course of my life.  I have been blessed with good therapists.  I have been given many blessings, and many struggles, but even in the struggles there are blessings.

I've grown up in a family that is dysfunctional, and there is emotional, verbal abuse, there has been times when I thought to just run away.  But when I had nowhere else to go, it was the same family that took me in.  Then there was the family secret, that shook me to the core, and I really wasn't feeling loved or blessed, but it has shaped me into who I am today.  I have been given a diagnosis, a label, but in knowledge is power, and I am blessed to be able to figure out how to deal with this new information to overcome it.  In all my struggles there are blessings, even though they did not feel like blessings at the time.  God uses everything, even the very worst things for the good.  I'm still alive, another blessing, after my struggles with suicidal thoughts.

I may be single and living with my family, but it's a blessing in a way because I need to focus on me, and getting healthier, before trying to focus on being in relationship with another.  Just some of the many blessings.