So I go about my routine as normal, I mean on twitter, you are going to have followers, and it doesn't matter if someone follows you that much, what are the chances that it would change anything you write. It hasn't changed what I write. But some of the blog posts, and links, well they got me to thinking....and I'm starting to feel nudges. I don't always pay attention to nudges and I am quick to dismiss them. But sometimes you can kind of feel the air shift around you, and you can tell things in your life are going to shift.
Have I mentioned that I hate change!!! That said, I haven't been able to brush off the nudge or the sense that God is lining things up to make changes in my life. Now I guess this would be the place to mention that I have recently asked God where He would use me. And I have asked my Pastor, at the church I just recently returned to, to also pray that God would show me where I should serve. Been seeking my area to be of help to Gods kingdom. Been reading some life changing books and just really doing some soul searching.
In spite of all of this, I guess you could say I wasn't totally expecting any major shifts all that soon. So going about somewhat like normal although starting some new habits. So the author I mentioned, she sometimes shares posts about writing, and well I have been doing an online bible study where there is a blog hop, and I have shared my other blog on there and have been thinking about the blog and researched a bit how to make a bigger difference. So I have somewhat focused on writing content and stuff.
My old therapist had recommended that I follow through with an idea someone gave me in an online community to write something that for now I will not name, using my faith to help others with mental health concerns. Well I had been thinking I would, but have not taken the time to attempt any of this yet, although I have some ideas.
Now reading some of the things on the authors blog, and the writing tips and things. I am getting this strange feeling that I can't shake, that God has brought this person into my online life right now for a reason. But more than that I find that I think God is about to change my life. I keep reminding myself and God that if it is His will that I will do this, even though it might be uncomfortable for me. At the same time, I like my little life, fairly simple and uncomplicated. I refuse to over think things and make it into something it is not, however, I don't offer myself the chance to totally ignore these feelings. I find that God has a strange sense of humor, and the things you had never seriously considered or ever thought about doing, sometimes they are the very things that happen.
At the same time, I will not forge ahead and attempt to do anything on my own. I don't want to attempt to force things before the time is right, and I don't want to push things along anyway. I hate change, but I have found when God is behind it, then it is almost always worth while to obey.
And trying to convince myself last night that I was over thinking and it was nothing at all, I picked up the bible to continue my reading, and what verse stuck out and seriously reinforced everything?
Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying: “Whom shall I send, And who will go for Us?” Then I said, “Here am I! Send me.” Isaiah 6:8I know this is considered somewhat a new christian idea to think that you pick up the bible, flip somewhere and find a verse that is meant for you. But honestly I wasn't looking for a verse, or anything, just continuing in my reading of Isaiah. But that just really stuck out, and couldn't be denied.
So what do I expect to happen, absolutely nothing. And what do I expect from this sweet writer, nothing. But I will not be surprised if God doesn't use these experiences in a really big way in the days to come. What do I mean about a big way? Only God knows what that means.
