What I know and don't know

So I have been thinking about what it is I am supposed to be doing with my life now.  What job am I meant to pursue next?  I honestly don't know.  What are my dreams?  What do I want to do with the rest of my life?

But a few things I do know.   I know that I want to help others.  I also know that I am good at computers and customer service.

Where does that leave me in finding a job, I'm not sure.  But at least I know that I need to take these things into consideration while in my job search.

The things I don't know are what exactly I want to pursue or how I want to do it.

Blessed

I am so blessed.  Life has brought changes that I wasn't expecting and yes I originally struggled with that, but then it just made me realize that I am just so blessed.  God is leading me, where, I am not sure.  But I am not concerned about the problems and circumstances that I am looking at. I am just resting in knowing that God has everything under control, and I have no reason to worry.  I am so Blessed.

Trials

In light of current life changes....I think I have been coping fairly well.  And more and more change seems to be coming.  But at times it is simply so hard to keep moving forward, when everything in life seems to be falling apart. 

People's minds are messed up things, and they twist normal everyday stuff into you being out to get them, and then they try to create trouble for you.  Whatever, I may not know much, and I am constantly trying to deal with the ongoing drama of life, but I do know one thing.  MY GOD IS BIGGER THAN ANY THING THAT THEY CAN PUT IN MY PATH. 

My go to verse for now is Psalm 5:12:  For You, O Lord, will bless the righteous; With favor You will surround him as with a shield.

I have God's favor on my life, and no one can take that away from me.  As long as I remember that no one can cause me permanent damage.  God will fight the battle, and all I have to do, is simply to do what I can, and give it to God.

Happiness

Lately I have been really struggling.  I'm not sure that I know what it takes to be happy.  I'm not even sure that I would know how to define happiness in my life.  I sometimes even wonder why I continue to try, when more often than not my days are a struggle to get through.

I know that people are happy and that happiness can be found.  But right now I am lacking that aspect of my life.  It's back to fight to get through each day, and hopefully find something in the day that is even remotely satisfying.

Wondering how to get to the happy that I see others have in life.  There must be something I am missing...I just don't know what that is yet.